Stop It ! Awake !

(6.20am)

"Damn It!"

It was the first fucking word blast out from my brain ,
when I was just extraordinarily awake from my bed...
I was once again experience a horrible ,solitude, helpless nightmare again...



I dream what you guy doing to me ,
how was you guy treat me the last few week ago...



The same character , the same situation , the same surround...
There is nothing different ...




" The dream was begin from a message, I has no idea how did I saw it...
But I really saw the message from a phone screen...

The message was shown like below



(Hi ,guy/ gals ...We got a gathering tonight on 8pm...
We would plan to gathering and watching movie...
So, Please do attend...
*p.s. NOT TO TOLD JINUS , TQ)

Message Receive on - 7pm
Sender by XXXX


I was tottaly breakdown on that moment ,
WTH mean NOT TO TOLD JINUS???
What did I do?
Why I would be the not to mention ?
Is that any wrong with me?


I run out my mind ...


I has got no strength to hold it anymore...


(The dream's screen change to a coffee shop)


I appear myself in the coffee shop,
At first , I was raging to all people in the coffee shop...
I can look myself like a mirror , my look was like WITCH ...



Everyone run out of the coffee shop ,
Just you guy stay on ...


I can clearly heard someone shout to me


"You are moving to KL , So we won't ever call you again...
Just that all..."





When the word gone end , I was crying such a big crybaby!
NO PEOPLE was support me or stand beside me on the moment, even HER ...
I looking on her , but she was ignore me...


I was lonely ...
turn my step on...
Run as fast as possible , I wish I can hide like a Ostrich...


Running for while miles , and I fall into a abyss...
NONSTOP FALLING...
FALL~











FALL~












FALL~














FALL~ "



Arghhhh!!!
I cant help myself out, I was nothing...
I got no ME!
I got no SOUL!


T.T





Guy / Girl ,



You guy can act me like a FOOL...
But , don't did me like a FOOL...


Please...








I was ruin my mentality out of my exceed...


I can't afford any much more hurt , or news get by you guy...

Just stand off , dont touch me...





My heart was bleeding again...


I can act it like make a movie ,
But I cant hide away the truthness pain when i recall back...



I can told everyone ,
I was the most fine on the world...
But , I wont hide my tear when I am alone...


Everything just happen between I can , But I will...



It was 8.30am now...
I was fucking feel paralyze right now...
Sleepy ...**yawn**




I cant fall asleep now , Once I close my eyes up...
I saw everything flow in again!


I got

11am got to went for a Interview...

3pm back to home, maybe I can get a lil bit rest on that time...


5pm drum class


6pm get myself clean up and pack ...


6.30pm back to Elecoldxhot's studio


10.30pm Finish Trainin

11.00pm reach my home sweet home~


It's my plan for today...

I will try my own last breath to hold me up for today!